I am a sucker. A sucker who sucks. Thats all I do; I suck, suck, suck. I suck out peoples energy. I have come to the conclusion that I have no friends. I have energy sources. I confide in many people just so i can be poured into by them. I do this because i hope that they will say something that changes me. I basicly suck them dry, contackt them all the time just so I can rant and rave and collect their sympathy. I call these people my friends, but inactuality I don't treat them as such. I guess I don't know how to be a friend. even at this moment. I am attempting to suck you dry of time, energy and sympathy.
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hey! join the club! i just realised this too last week...crazy!! yea im trying to reach out as much as i can and heal THEIR hurts. it feels so counter intuitive, but i actually leave blessed, even though they may or may not have listened to my problems. my problems werent the focus. they were. its helped me be more emotionally stable.
Man, I'm glad you've realised this is a problem for you, as of course it is for many people including myself at times, and in a way it's an exciting time even though it doesn't feel like it, because you have the opportunity to start dealing with the issues that lead to you being a sucker and work to make sure you do these things less in your friendships. In time, a long time unfortunately, things will be different within you and how you relate to others.
Chris
Apparently God likes to "batch edit" us guys because this is exactly the same thing I've been learning for the very first time just last week. It all came back to "what is real love?" and realizing that God's love is unconditional and self-less. To truly love is to give away and expect nothing in return, to give of your self in order that others may be built up. So the challenge is to replace the lies and darkness that we've embraced and replace them with truth and light.
In summary: now that you know the truth, what are you going to do about it?!
It's part of the maturing process, my friend. Spiritually, emotionally, psychologically. As you learn to give to others and listen to others, the focus on yourslef can become less. Some people never learn that skill and stay in a less mature state for much of their lives. So count this realization as a growth step.
I have recently felt this way about myself, and I want to try and encourage you to just sit back and try to think about where those needs come from. There's obviously a reason why you try and take from people, and it probably has something to do with not being given something when you were a child. That child that was neglected is still alive and well and trying to get what he never back then. If you can find a way to accept that child, understand where he's coming from, then you can co-exist with him.
lol, I learned all of that from my therapy this summer, and let me tell you, it wasn't easy!